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it's the truth

baru 16 tahun mengenal hidup atau mungkin ada yang lebih, hidup itu terasa indah pada waktunya. terasa menyenangkan saat orang disekitar memang ada untuk menemani. hidup itu menyenangkan dan merindukan history didalamnya.

Aku rindu, masuk dalam suasana yang biasanya hadir dalam hidup. Aku rindu, untuk membiarkannya terus ada dalam jangka waktuku. Aku rindu rasanya ada dibibirku dan mengalir dipipiku. Aku rindu tetesan itu yang mengurangi kesedihanku serta menemani perih mata. Aku rindu tangisanku, aku rindu tetes air mataku.
Rasanya hambar. Seperti lauk tak berbumbu. Layaknya musik tanpa melodi serta ibarat hidup tak bernafas. Ternyata ini rasanya melepas lega akan suatu rahasia yang biasanya terpendam sendiri. Namun kini rela terbuka tuk berbagi. Entah apa ini, baru baru saja. Aneh rasanya antara cemas lega, takut, khawatir, bahagia, atau tidak percaya. Tapi aku lega.

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