COMADOT by Qorin Rahmaniyah

Hellow, Rin,  Have you fallen in love with yourself recently? You know, you know, it's not a must, a necessary instead. There are some people, new people, coming in that could be your new fresh problems, tho. However, I know you are being aware of those things, I know it. I see you are smiling more to yourself in front of the mirror, that used to be your enemy every single time you do your skincare routine, I smell those nice shampoo from your hair and your perfume everytime you are going out, even on your own. You don't like wearing the watch your dad bought it for you just because you don't wanna feel too much sweat on your skin. You do wear it now. Understanding yourself is a never ending saga you have in life, but you're preparing and learning how to do it. I wanna give you a big applause for that. Like the song from D.O. and Wonstein, "I'm gonna love you". I know you are preparing and fixing yourself from the inside.  That's a good good, keep goin

I'm going to be older in several days, a week specifically, and I wanna dump lots of thoughts I have in mind,.. and heart. So, I'm turning 27 this October, the same date as Lay EXO's birthday (fangirling mode on). I feel like I have learned lots but none at the same time. Every time I discover or meet someone new, I realize I haven't learned enough about life and about myself.  I was growing up without knowing that it's okay for me to show the variety of emotions I experienced just because there's no validation of me being sad or mad. Being grateful is nice but it should be done enough. I kept getting ignored by people around me for everything I said and told because it was me. Double standard. I had tried telling that I was in pain, I was uncomfortable maintaining relationship with some people, I wanted to go somewhere, I dreamed of having that kind of trip with the whole family, or just simply hung out with my friends. The reason was the same because it was me