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have been tasted

rasa akan. .
kesabaran yang mendatar....
ketenangan tanpa kerikil masalah....

masalah itu ada... banyak......
tapi Tuhan itu satu... esa.... dan amat besar......

sering kali aku berfikir tuk mengubah waktu... lingkunganku...
mungkin pernah terfikir untuk mengubah karakter... dan orang-orang.
tapi, caraku memandang suatu fokuslah yang harusnya diubah,,
cara untuk membuat pendapat dan menanggapinya yang mestinya ku perluas.

maybe I have  too much negthink
or,  I don't have a lot of creativity for make an argument.
actually, I have posthink but my bad side is stronger than the right side.
I always want to give a proof, I don't talk anymore.
   and this is it...
      I'm not a brave girl who want to come first.



and so on.

-1715

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