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long time no post anything
I think, no.. I am thinking of my future life actually, am I still alive? can I live in this same way? is it true my own path? dan kawan kawannya. banyak pertanyaan dan bahan diskusi dalam benak, but gak biasa untuk diungkapin ya jadinya just post this kind of postingan agak geje.

What should I do pas udah lulus entar?
I am still in my 5th semester -not still-  more than setengah perjalanan lah buat nyelesaiin kuliah tepat waktu.

I am not typical of a girl who have a big dream or have huge plans for five to ten years later.
I just do something that usually appear suddenly in my mind, Pas mau buat cerpen atau puisi bahkan cuma ngabisin waktu buat cari ide sana sini, I just do it. yeah, I just do it, not directly, just will do it,

I dont say that I dont have -at least- a little dream, I have it. Kalau disuruh nge-list itu mimpi atau angan, bakalan banyaklah, dari hal simple banget beberapa menit juga udah didapetin sampe yang harus butuh proses panjang.

But, when I have a dream I do not have to 'have' it, I like to say it as ' I have to struggle to have the answer, whether this dream is my right way or not'-1715

Aku baik baik saja kok dan sedang berusaha menjadi lebih baik lagi.

okay..

Gak jelas masihan. Butuh pemandu nunjukin arah.

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